OUTFIT | ABOUT FEELING OVERWHELMED AND ANXIOUS
Happy Mon lovelies! I took a picayune interruption from blogging concluding week. Like I said inwards my latest spider web log post I was non actually feeling it at all lately. Every 1 time inwards a spell I instruct this real overwhelming feeling. Negative thoughts accept over together with all I tin intend is: Why am I fifty-fifty doing this? What am I doing alongside my life? I am 20 similar a shot , why do I receive got zilch figured out yet? I am non satisfied alongside my content. My writing sucks.
It all got likewise much concluding calendar week after I heard some negative things beingness said well-nigh me. I am someone who , fifty-fifty though I shouldn't , I accept things that people tell well-nigh me real closed to heart. Especially when they are your so-called friends , but verbalize shit well-nigh you lot behind your back. It made me dubiousness myself equally a individual , my operate on my spider web log equally good equally my futurity career after I destination school.
Basically , I had a massive mental breakdown , bawled my eyes out together with felt anxious all week. I simply did non experience similar blogging likewise much concluding week. I already knew that the content that I would hold upwards writing would non hold upwards practiced anyway. Putting on a simulated grin , trying to delineate it through a calendar week at operate , having to hold upwards social. It drains the unloosen energy away from you lot when you're non happy at a for sure 2nd inwards time. Negative thoughts tin hold upwards overwhelming , together with equally much equally I pretend to hold upwards fine together with non allow the negative thoughts instruct to me equally much , it is a lot harder when someone you lot know together with trust verbalize shit well-nigh you lot behind your back. You starting fourth dimension doubting yourself...
There's zilch incorrect alongside doubting yourself every 1 time inwards while. It ordinarily makes me experience fifty-fifty to a greater extent than motivated afterwards. It motivates me to operate fifty-fifty harder to plough over my goals together with to evidence my negative thoughts wrong. To evidence those people who verbalize shit well-nigh you lot wrong. This fourth dimension roughly soundless , it took a lot longer to instruct over this anxious , overwhelmed feeling. The argue of this all? Social media.
Now I know that people alone portion parts of their 'happy' life on their social media pages. I do it myself too. You run across a photograph on instagram that is absolutely gorgeous , but you lot don't know what is going on behind that pretty photograph that someone shares on Instagram. They mightiness experience awful , but it is all hidden behind that pretty photo.
But when negative thoughts accept over , together with you lot experience similar crap , together with your aspect upwards is covered inwards pimples due to your stressy breakdowns together with simply are feeling real anxious together with insecure , this picture that people create roughly their photos does non help. It does non aid to run across all of these people on instagram sharing photos of their gorgeous bodies , on an amazing trip away inwards Ibiza , Rome , Barcelona living their luxury 'Instagram' lifestyles. Now I am inwards no means maxim that people should non hold upwards living their lives this means , sharing their posts on social media.
What I desire to tell alongside this spider web log post service is that it is okay to experience overwhelmed together with anxious at times. However , don't allow social media fool you lot into thinking that your life sucks , simply because you lot don't alive that way. I run across lots together with lots of younger girls present beingness depressed , because they experience similar they receive got to alive upwards to the Instagram lifestyle standards. And yeah , I compare my life to those Instagram lifestyle standards too. And to hold upwards completely realistic , it's non realistic at all.
I am alone 20 years onetime , which is soundless together with then young! To experience similar I receive got non accomplished anything inwards life yet is normal at this age. Because I haven't. I am alone 20 years onetime together with spent most of my fourth dimension working my donkey of inwards schoolhouse or academy to instruct the life that I want. What nosotros receive got to recollect , is that on social media , nosotros all create this picture equally if nosotros alive inwards a perfect bubble. Even when life is non that swell at the moment. But you lot do operate difficult together with you lot do it all for your ain reasons.
And fifty-fifty though I posted lot of (premade) content inwards which you lot could non run across I had been having a shit calendar week concluding calendar week , I definitely was having one. I had a practiced intend well-nigh it lately. And I am prepare to verbalize well-nigh the existent me too. About my insecurities inwards life. On what I run across equally succes or failure. I am prepare to verbalize well-nigh these topics on my spider web log , on my Instagram. Even on Twitter. I am prepare to portion that life is non ever perfect. We all bargain alongside our demons together with problems inwards a dissimilar way. So from similar a shot on , let's move along it existent on here.
What I'm wearing:
ASOS jeans
Vans Old Skool trainers
Rebecca Minkoff bag
